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I had a very interesting conversation last night with my friend Sara.  She already knows most everything that’s happened in my life and vice-versa. But last night, I found something out about Sara that I never knew.

Sara has spent most of her life envying me.

1.       I find this totally absurd because I never thought I had much to be envious of.

2.       I find this ironic because I’ve spent most of my life being envious of Sara.

Sara is the most level headed person I know. She has been since age 9. I envy her for that. She thinks before she acts. She weighs all options. She makes pro and con lists. I very rarely do this. I am more spontaneous than I wish I were.

Sara, however, envies my spontaneity. She lives her life scared. She spends so much time thinking that she ends up not making a decision and then misses out on something. I, on the other hand, go with my gut, and rarely consider the fallout.

We’ve been a pretty perfect pair for each other growing up. I push her to do the things she’s too afraid to. She acts as my external conscience. She makes me think before I jump into something. Although lately I’ve been becoming more and more like Sara. I get afraid, and over analyze. Sara is trying to stop me from becoming her. To quote her “Well then i dont think you need to worry about everything… thats my job. Im the worrier, who worries about every detail. Be carefree… it works for ya.”

Thank God for that girl, or I’d be even crazier than I am now!

3 Responses to “Envious?”

1. LeeGratz Says:
   January 6th, 2009 at 12:52 pm

   “lately I’ve been becoming more and more like Sara.”

   “Sara is trying to stop me from becoming her.”

   So are you going to “stop becoming her” and worry less about things? Or do you like the way you are now?

2. Chimmypoo29 Says:
   January 6th, 2009 at 1:58 pm

   I think I’m going to try to find a happy medium.

3. Aaron J Says:
   January 17th, 2009 at 12:58 am

   :D

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