penguinpride

Yesterday morning I finally got my wisdom teeth out! Yay.

When I woke up I shook all the nurses’ hands. Obviously, I was on drugs.

My mouth bled all day.

I want hot wings. :(

I don’t even know if you read this anymore.

But if you do happy birthday!!

so i’m basically in the process of packing my life away. not really though…just the majority of my clothes.

i’ve been cleaning my room the past few days. and by “cleaning”, i mean purging most of the remnants of random things in my closets. they are almost bare right now, and it makes me kind of sad that i don’t really have things to put in them [without making them a total mess].

i have 3 boxes full of clothes so far…i think i’ll probably have 4 total when i’m done. i still have some laundry to do before i leave. and i have to pack my jeans.

i feel like people have so much more stuff than me for their dorm. i guess we’ll find out how much i’ve forgotten on Thursday.

i feel like so many people have texted me and IMed me, saying how i should hang out with them before i leave…but quite frankly, there’s literally no time. like right now, i could be hanging out with people. earlier i could have as well. but everyone waits till the last day to ask. my plans for tomorrow are as follows:
-wake up [i guess by 9:30 i should be good]
-do some laundry
-pack like no other
-maybe go to alex’s house and chill
-pick up alexis and krista from school and hang [also get a peak at the new science wing, and see my teachers for the last time until i leave]
-last supper with the family at fuji

Then Thursday, i guess we’ll do any LAST MINUTE packing [which i assume is like deodorant and toothbrush and stuff. we MIGHT go out to breakfast. i have to pick up my last check at safeway. then we're off to Towson...to get there AFTER 11 sometime. my roomate's getting there at 11, and i don't want to get there first [mainly i dont want to decide what side to sleep on lol]

i think ramen is one of my comfort foods. i’m eating it right now…to try to calm down.
i feel like i’m starting to get cold feet for college…with 13 days left.

every day that gets closer, it feels more and more of a reality…and i wonder, can i handle this shit?
i realize that people have to grow up…and i’m probably being a baby because my college is only 45 minutes away from my house. but i dont see it like that. i’ve lived in this house for 18 years. my biggest move was from bowie [5 minutes away] to crofton when i was 1, and too young to even remember our old town house. i’ve gone to the same schools, and have known the same people all of my life.
but now everyone’s leaving…well some people are staying…but that’s not the point.
people are going to move on…get better lives, get new friends. they say that your college friends are usually your friends for life, and you get closer to them more than your high school friends. i like my friends just fine now though. **shrug**

i was talking to byron on the phone one night [he called and my dad told me to answer the phone], and the things he said made me kind of upset. he was like “after you leave for college, your house isn’t going to be your home anymore…you’ll be a visitor from now on.” saying that is probably one of the biggest things you can say to me that sets in the reality of that. it set in even more when my parents told me that when i left, they might paint and rearrange my room. that made me dumbfounded. its my room, and they’re just going to take my stuff and move it around to their liking.

i started going dorm shopping with my mom the other day. it’s kind of an overwhelming and daunting experience…i didnt even know where to start. i feel like the majority of the stuff that these stores are selling are useless. and crap. we walked around both target and walmart…walmarts selection was disappointing…even though it IS walmart, and we didn’t have very high expectations to begin with. we ended up buying some towels and detergent. that’s how far i’ve gotten with my dorm shopping. freaking towels and laundry detergent. no i lie…we also bought a box of tampons. lol.

we decided to get sheets and a comforter and stuff from the catalog that towson sent us…they had a much wider variety of twin xl sheets than the places that we went to, and i actually liked some of the stuff, so that’s out of the way as well.

i dont even know what else i have to buy…a lamp, for sure. things i need for the bathroom, make sure i have shampoo and soap and toothpaste stuff like that. i feel like i’m being a minimalist…either that, or i’m just not thinking enough. oh well…i’ll probaly remember when i get on campus…which is good. lol. because the first night that we move in, a bus will come and take students that want to go, out to target to finish shopping and to get things they might’ve forgotten. i think thats cool, only towson students roaming target after closing time.

the countdown continues. anticipation and fear have played their parts…and i’m sure they will both continue to play their parts. i have a lot to do in the time that i have left. i started cleaning a month or so ago…haven’t gotten far at all. i’ll probably end up going through my closets and just throwing massive amounts of shit away. because truthfully, i have so much shit i don’t use. my family is filled with packrats. my parents are weird and go through all the trash that i throw away, and keep the stuff that they “could, maybe use”, or “could, maybe donate to goodwill”…in the meanwhile, we have piles upon piles of clothes, toys, etc etc in our basement, with years of neglectment. i’ll take things into my own hands now. i WILL have my room cleaned before i go away.

So I should probably start cleaning my room soon, seeing as how I’m moving out in a matter of weeks. Days, I guess you could say. There’s only 14 days until my birthday. The day after that, I’m sleeping at my dad’s for the rest of the summer.

Well actually I’m going to have to wait until I can get my car. But I can start that process once I turn 18. In fourteen days. Good times. Well they will be. Once I get that goddamn car.

Today was supposed to be my birthday. Except for the fact that I was born late.

So basically I want a video camera for my birthday. More than anything else. I just want to mess around with it, make some kickass videos, pretend I’m popular, etc.  ;)

Today also just happened to be the last day for graduating seniors. I am so glad to be done with school. You just would not believe it. Everyone’s saying about how they cried so much, etc. Frankly, I don’t care. I guess I never really got that attached to anything or anyone here. I have plenty of friends, but I guess if we really want to stay in touch we will, and if we don’t, we won’t, and there’s nothing wrong with that.